Getting Fit.

wow.. sooo me and my friend Quinne have decided we are going to start running, or jogging, to tone up.. Not like SHE needs it. we all know my fat ass does. ya know, having a baby and all..
and sitting on my ass at home all day only working part time isnt going to do shit... SO Im glad we are doing this.. and sticking to it.
anyways... its been a longgg time since I really have ran like that.. But cut me some slack cause I was pregnant for 9 damn months.. and now Im a mom so its hard to just go running when you have a baby. anyhooo.
Hopefully this will help! they say running and swimming are the best ways to work out/tone up..

we'll see

when I got done and came home.... I smoked a cig... how healthy??
hahaha
hey.. its better then eating ice cream...

not really..

Basically.

So right now My husband is mad at me for smoking. whatever. Im just blah right now. Im not in a good mood. I mean everytime I try to say anything to him he is like. "Im trying to study for work..." all rudely. anyways.

my eye lids are heavy... I dont do this on a normal basis I mean, I know its not the most responsible thing to do being a mom and army wife. but I said wtf tonight.

I need to go to bed.

Is It Good?

Fuck. A blogger now? first myspace then facebook and now this. Oh well. Its better then a stupid diary.
plus.. I love myspace.
shit I have alot on my mind.
So. Im 20 years old. [21 in june] with a 10 months son and a husband. and as bad as it sounds... sometimes I miss my old life. I mean. I love my son more then I have ever loved anything in the world, believe me. and my husband is amazing. but... I (and terry too) missed out on so much in life. I mean. we grew up so fast.
we were ready to be done with HS and be together again and live together and be "adults" and now we add a baby to the mix and wha-la. its picture perfect.
but is it really? I mean... I love terry but even I wonder what will be 5 years from now. when we get into those little stupid ass arguments over the littlest things.. its rediculouse. and then the little arguments turn into fights.
I guess I m jealouse of those living the fantastic, fun, worry less, bill less lifestyle... I grew up so fast.

Is this horrible of me to say?

AND. not only all of the above.. I have been getting such flirty attention from this guy who works right by the store I work at in the mall. and I LOVE it??!!!???!! I mean. when your own husband isnt really making you feel like the best thing that has happened to him and a complete stranger is.. who wouldnt enjoy some flirtation. what the hell.
fuck. Im tired.